1 00:05:01,405 --> 00:05:05,720 https://vk.com/video-196485682_456239719 https://www.fpo.xxx/video/576571/0-5-una-ventana-de-40-anos-alexis-fawx-rebecca-mas-tina-kay-cassie-del-isla/ 2 00:05:13,405 --> 00:05:20,720 When you lose someone so suddenly, it feels like your whole world is collapsing around you. 3 00:05:22,405 --> 00:05:26,040 Nothing seems important anymore. 4 00:05:26,140 --> 00:05:29,040 You feel like your whole life has no meaning 5 00:05:29,040 --> 00:05:34,240 but reality soon catches up with you. 6 00:06:11,870 --> 00:06:14,540 And Dorian, he was my whole world. 7 00:06:14,640 --> 00:06:17,540 You might think that sounds like a cliche, 8 00:06:17,540 --> 00:06:21,540 but I don't mean in the romantic sense. 9 00:06:21,540 --> 00:06:25,540 My world revolved around him, 10 00:06:25,540 --> 00:06:30,540 and it definitely should it have been that way. 11 00:06:33,740 --> 00:06:35,800 We were happy. Maybe not so much recently, 12 00:06:35,800 --> 00:06:37,840 but we couldn't say that we were unhappy either. 13 00:06:37,940 --> 00:06:41,140 Having been together 17 years, it wasn't always easy, 14 00:06:41,340 --> 00:06:44,140 but I always felt that I was fortunate. 15 00:06:44,240 --> 00:06:48,800 We've been able to keep our love and our relationship alive. 16 00:06:48,820 --> 00:06:53,820 But now I realized, in fact, we didn't stand the test of time. 17 00:06:53,920 --> 00:06:56,820 His work caused him to spend less and less time at home, 18 00:06:56,920 --> 00:07:01,320 and recently it got particularly bad. 19 00:07:07,420 --> 00:07:10,320 There had been more than one night where I'd fallen asleep before he arrived home. 20 00:07:10,320 --> 00:07:13,750 That's without counting the when he didn't come home at all. 21 00:08:04,150 --> 00:08:06,650 Of course, I questioned it. 22 00:08:06,750 --> 00:08:08,500 I interrogated him. 23 00:08:08,580 --> 00:08:12,950 I got angry, but I never really doubted him. 24 00:08:13,050 --> 00:08:15,220 I knew He knew that he had to take care of his clients, 25 00:08:15,220 --> 00:08:21,920 even if that meant keeping up with the party animals right till dawn. 26 00:23:53,480 --> 00:23:56,910 I was in denial. 27 00:23:56,920 --> 00:24:05,950 I now know where he was 13 days ago, when his car spun off the carriage way and hit a truck. 28 00:24:47,020 --> 00:24:51,890 I had been intrigued by this woman. all the way through the funeral service. 29 00:24:51,900 --> 00:24:56,370 I didn't know her, but she seemed just as upset as I was. 30 00:24:56,380 --> 00:24:59,950 I was expecting her to offer me her condolences, 31 00:24:59,960 --> 00:25:03,580 but it turned out to be a whole different story. 32 00:25:27,530 --> 00:25:32,960 I read about these kind of things in books, and seen it in movies, tv series. 33 00:25:32,970 --> 00:25:37,080 but you always tell yourself, that it's something that happens to other people. 34 00:25:37,090 --> 00:25:39,400 I thought that I'd lost him just two weeks ago, 35 00:25:39,410 --> 00:25:46,880 whereas in fact he already slipped away from me four years ago, four years. 36 00:25:46,890 --> 00:25:50,560 She said that she didn't know a thing about me until, She went to the police station. 37 00:25:50,970 --> 00:25:53,880 worried that he wasn't answering her calls. 38 00:25:53,890 --> 00:25:57,560 now she finds it crazy that she never suspected a thing. 39 00:25:57,570 --> 00:26:02,560 I must be just as crazy as her. 40 00:26:18,410 --> 00:26:26,560 I hesitated a long time, but I had to go ahead and confront her about it out of pride 41 00:26:38,070 --> 00:26:43,770 casey, that's her name, young, vibrant 42 00:26:43,770 --> 00:26:49,360 a name that right away sounds like light bright and fun, 43 00:26:49,370 --> 00:26:52,560 they had an apartment together, they lived as a couple. 44 00:26:54,010 --> 00:26:57,600 but he was often away on business. of course. 45 00:26:57,610 --> 00:27:03,440 and their relationship had been an open one, open. 46 00:27:03,570 --> 00:27:06,280 didn't quite understand what she meant by that. 47 00:27:06,290 --> 00:27:10,320 my husband was clearly not what you would call open. 48 00:27:10,410 --> 00:27:13,160 didn't want to know anymore, 49 00:27:13,160 --> 00:27:16,760 but at the same time i desperately needed to. 50 00:27:16,810 --> 00:27:22,960 i wanted to know all the details to try to understand who he really was and why 51 00:27:22,960 --> 00:27:25,560 i wasn't enough for him. 52 00:27:26,310 --> 00:27:29,360 I begin to see things more clearly. 53 00:27:30,570 --> 00:27:33,240 Casey she was a dancer, 54 00:27:33,840 --> 00:27:37,920 well, a stripper, to put it plainly, another cliche 55 00:27:37,920 --> 00:27:43,400 and my husband, a walking cliche of a cheat. 56 00:27:43,500 --> 00:27:50,360 It all seems so pathetic that I found it humiliating. 57 00:29:34,790 --> 00:29:39,080 They started seeing each other or hooking up as she called it. 58 00:29:39,080 --> 00:29:44,080 and they soon realized that they shared some of the same 59 00:30:16,310 --> 00:30:21,020 It started out with her dancing for other men and it all progressed from there, 60 00:30:21,030 --> 00:30:27,480 seeing him so aroused by these voistic encounters, gave her the most pleasure. 61 00:47:01,370 --> 00:47:05,920 My husband, a swinger, really? 62 00:47:05,930 --> 00:47:11,200 Casey had to explain it to me all in great detail, for me to understand what it meant. 63 00:47:11,210 --> 00:47:17,560 I realized that I always behaved like an up-tight old prude. 64 00:47:50,130 --> 00:47:52,200 I was so angry at him but .... 65 00:47:52,200 --> 00:47:56,700 I couldn't get the thought out of my head that maybe I was to blame. 66 00:47:57,510 --> 00:48:03,560 What did I done? Or more to the point, what hadn't I done? 67 00:48:43,440 --> 00:48:46,950 Tony was Dorian's best friend, 68 00:48:46,960 --> 00:48:50,010 they'd known each other since childhood, 69 00:48:50,010 --> 00:48:53,710 but they always didn't see eye to eye. 70 00:49:21,220 --> 00:49:24,150 Tony was the wilder one of the two, 71 00:49:24,150 --> 00:49:27,050 and he hadn't settled down at all over the years. 72 00:49:27,050 --> 00:49:29,060 He was always seing new girl. 73 00:49:29,060 --> 00:49:31,130 and sometimes more than one at the same time. 74 00:49:36,140 --> 00:49:39,530 Dorian. have criticized his lifestyle 75 00:49:39,530 --> 00:49:43,030 and they even had really big arguments about it. 76 00:49:46,320 --> 00:49:50,050 I didn't know how to tell Tony, but I knew that I had to. 77 00:49:50,060 --> 00:49:52,370 I needed someone else to feel the same sense 78 00:49:52,380 --> 00:49:55,970 of injustice and shock at finding out his lies. 79 00:49:55,980 --> 00:50:01,280 I needed to share it with someone. 80 00:50:17,500 --> 00:50:20,050 Tony was decided himself. 81 00:50:20,050 --> 00:50:23,250 Dorian had hurt him, he felt betrayed. 82 00:50:23,250 --> 00:50:27,570 Now we are both feeling the same thing. 83 00:50:27,570 --> 00:50:31,570 both of us needed to draw a line underneath the past 84 01:07:31,300 --> 01:07:35,850 Casey. It's me, Alexis. 85 01:07:35,850 --> 01:07:39,490 I've thought about everything you told me the other day. 86 01:07:39,500 --> 01:07:47,410 I tried to picture it all, you and him, the things you both did. 87 01:07:47,420 --> 01:07:49,730 Then I looked at myself. 88 01:07:49,740 --> 01:07:53,010 I tried to imagine what he thought of me, 89 01:07:53,020 --> 01:07:56,010 and I don't want to keep turning it over in my mind, 90 01:07:56,930 --> 01:08:00,920 because it doesn't really matter anymore, does it? 91 01:08:04,020 --> 01:08:05,730 Today I met up with his best friend, Tony 92 01:08:05,740 --> 01:08:09,349 and I told him what his friend was? 93 01:08:09,949 --> 01:08:13,949 really like, then I fucked him, 94 01:08:16,429 --> 01:08:20,209 or he fucked me. I don't really know how to describe it 95 01:08:20,909 --> 01:08:24,050 but I loved it. 96 01:08:24,060 --> 01:08:27,950 I don't feel guilty about anything at all, 97 01:08:27,950 --> 01:08:30,450 I just feel different. 98 01:08:41,070 --> 01:08:44,980 i know i shouldn't but i can't help feeling compassion for her 99 01:08:45,180 --> 01:08:49,370 It's as if I was looking at myself in the mirror and seeing another person, 100 01:08:49,380 --> 01:08:52,170 a person who I would like to be. 101 01:09:59,480 --> 01:10:02,070 I feel like I'm losing my grip, 102 01:10:02,080 --> 01:10:08,710 I don't know if I'm trying to heal myself or hurt myself or hurt him. 103 01:10:20,760 --> 01:10:24,270 Casey told me to meet her at 1:00 in the morning. 104 01:10:24,650 --> 01:10:28,150 The only thing I have is a zip code, 105 01:10:28,150 --> 01:10:31,650 and a phone number in case I get lost. 106 01:30:13,200 --> 01:30:17,910 I find it hard to explain my feelings towards Casey. 107 01:30:17,910 --> 01:30:22,860 Sometimes I still hate her and everything that she reminds me of. 108 01:30:22,870 --> 01:30:25,380 The only thing I do know 109 01:30:25,380 --> 01:30:29,380 is that she needs me the same way I need her. 110 01:30:29,390 --> 01:30:33,980 Maybe our friendship is kind of weird. 111 01:30:36,510 --> 01:30:38,970 Some might say that it's unhealthy. 112 01:30:38,970 --> 01:30:41,970 but we know that it's been necessary. 113 01:30:42,350 --> 01:30:46,490 When his will was read out, we realized that there was a lot more money . 114 01:30:46,680 --> 01:30:49,640 than we could have ever imagined or hoped for. 115 01:30:49,640 --> 01:30:52,640 He had taken out huge life insurance policy 116 01:30:52,640 --> 01:30:55,430 and I sold his business for a good price. 117 01:30:57,040 --> 01:30:59,990 He might have been cheating on me for longer than her, 118 01:31:00,080 --> 01:31:02,120 but her feelings for him were just as strong, 119 01:31:02,360 --> 01:31:05,300 so I decided to give her half of the money 120 01:31:05,300 --> 01:31:09,250 I still see Casey from time to time. 121 01:31:09,250 --> 01:31:12,640 We've been good for each other 122 01:31:12,640 --> 01:31:16,240 and we'll never forget that we both know that 123 01:31:16,240 --> 01:31:20,960 we wouldn't carry on without being this close each other. 124 01:31:30,230 --> 01:31:33,220 I made new friend through Casey. 125 01:31:33,220 --> 01:31:35,820 She introduced me to Rebecca. 126 01:31:35,830 --> 01:31:40,200 Just like me, Rebecca had found out that her husband was leading double life. 127 01:31:50,580 --> 01:31:54,52,0 she never wanted to make the same mistakes again. 128 01:31:55,360 --> 01:31:58,060 Rebecca doesn't hate men, far from it, 129 01:31:58,060 --> 01:32:02,560 but she doesn't want any kind of exclusive relationship. 130 01:32:03,070 --> 01:32:06,820 We are much more than just friends. 131 01:32:06,830 --> 01:32:13,420 We are partners in our quest for new experiences. 132 01:55:54,770 --> 01:55:57,900 And so the page has been turned once and for all. 133 01:55:59,059 --> 01:56:04,179 Casey and I have been strong enough to overcome this ordeal. 134 01:56:05,570 --> 01:56:11,000 our paths in life crossed at the moment we are both in need of a change 135 01:56:20,590 --> 01:56:22,560 my life... 136 01:56:23,450 --> 01:56:25,560 her life. 137 01:56:40,230 --> 01:56:43,480 her life. and new start for both of us.